My mom passed away on the evening of Tuesday January 25 after falling into a coma on Monday.
I didn't think I would cry but I did. I feel sad that she's gone, and I feel regretful for those times I was less than patient to her. I know in my heart that she would forgive me because she was a good mother. Good mothers always forgive. I will try to forgive myself, too. I hope I will be as good a mother to my children as she was to me and my brother.
She is now in heaven with the love of her life, her husband/my late father, and the young son she lost, and she is meeting up with her parents, her brothers and sisters that have gone before her.
I know she is healthy, young and beautiful again.
Until we meet again...
I probably will be off AC for awhile until time and distance can dampen the rawness of my feelings.
Take your time, and be good to yourself.
I pray you can find comfort and peace, knowing you will see her again.
No regrets for not having patience with her every second of every day. No can manage that and no one ever did.
I hope you find peace and are comforted in your grief.
I am sorry for your loss. My deepest sympathies and condolences. Thinking of you during this sad time. (((hugs))) Please know we are with you.
BurntCaregiver- thank you for your comment "No regrets for not having patience with her every second of every day. No can manage that and no one ever did."
It was a light bulb that turned on in my hazy mind. And it freed me from the guilt I was carrying. Thank you!
Llama, thanks for the hugs and love. You are so kind.I
Try to forgive yourself. No matter how much you love your parent, it's a terribly stressful situation. None of us are saints. We all can only do our best. I know my mom knows I did my best for her and I can rest easy with that. Your pain will ease. Your job is over. Cherish the experience and move on, with your mom's blessings.
When you’re ready, do come back. You have lots of wisdom to share with those who come behind you.
Onlychild1962 - I am so sorry for your loss, too. Hugs and love to you.