Some of you have known my problem for years now. She really hasn't spoken to her two adult sons in years. I am being accused of manipulating, coercing, and they say I am responsible for all our family problems. It was tolerable in my mind about my two brothers until I recently found out that the next generation, my 5 nieces and nephews, feel like their Dads feel about me. They are all over 21 years old. This new info absolutely kills me. It hurts my mother to the core. She tries so hard to get the whole mess out of her mind, but mentally can't do it. She has tried medicine, counseling, and keeping herself busy. I hate that her last few years on earth are going to be filled with anger, resentment, and such sadness. She is always asking me where she went wrong and my words mean nothing to her to try to explain it isn't her fault. If only there were apologies to her. I am long gone about any possible relationship with either one of them. Mom feels differently. She wants to "get this family straightened out before she kicks the bucket". I tell her it can't be done. She says there is always hope. Can anyone write directly to her and I will read your responses to her?
I am so sorry to learn how much pain you are in because of being estranged from your sons. I don't imagine that will ever go away or that you will ever be able to just let it go. You cared so much for them as children, and had such hopes for them.
You did the best you could for them in very trying circumstances. They had less than ideal childhoods, but not because of the lack of your love. Many times when the early years were especially tumultuous or chaotic or unstable there can be healing in the later years. So there is hope. But often all parties cannot put the past aside and grow beyond it, at least without professional help. I am sorry that that seems to be your family situation right now.
Aside from the very unfortunate estrangement, have your sons grown into decent men? Have they raised their own children well? Do they have good steady relationships with their wives? Have they had reasonably stable work lives? That they are very wrong-headed about their sister is highly regrettable, but in other ways have they overcome the difficult start they had in life? If so, be grateful for that.
Be grateful too for your daughter, who wants the best for you and who would like to see family wounds healed. She does not have the power to change your son's attitudes, but if she did she would want them to see that they have a loving mother.
You know that the only person whose role you can write in this drama is you. Continue to reach out to your sons, perhaps by sending occasional letters and notes. But know that you cannot control their reactions.
Rejoice in what you have. Try not to obsess on what you wish you had but do not.
Sincerely,
A cyber friend
Since they all seem to feel that you are the root of the family discord perhaps you should offer to step aside so that they can jump back in ;)
Your words are so true and direct. I am thankful for people like you that reach out to a stranger in their time of need.
Thank you again for taking more of your time to give me support and understanding. It obviously helps to know I am not alone and neither is my mom with her problems. My best to you and your husband as you navigate through the tough times.
Kate
Yes. My brothers think that Mom only thinks what I tell her to think. It is BS. Ask her lawyer, doctor, cousins, friends, etc. But they will never do this since they would learn the truth about me and her. Also, they have never had a sit down with just her to discuss the issues and get feedback from HER. Brainwashing has been a term used against me. I have let them go years ago. But a mom is very different then a sibling. That is why I am looking for other parents who have parted ways with their children for whatever reason. My mom needs some ideas on how not to ruminate about them and how they have treated her the past 3 years. Mom is a very quiet lady and if she disagrees with someone,, she doesn't speak up, so that makes the other person think she agrees with them. She has learned (through counseling) that is why she is in this position with them. Lawyers have been involved and huge amounts of money has been spent. Yes. Our childhood was dysfunctional as shown by how my dad died when I was 15....suicide.
One brother said to mom over a year ago...."MOM. Did you KNOW that what happens to you as a kid, has an influence on how you are as an adult????" this statement from a 55 year old man. The other one yelling.........."DAD COULDN'T HAVE BEEN GAY, HE HAD CHILDREN!!!" This stupidity coming from a 53 year old man. Welcome to my world.
Sincerely, Sheri McGregor
Author of Done With The Crying: Help and Healing for Mothers of Estranged Adult Children
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